day 1
Hello,
It has been an awful weekend--the worst I've felt since I arrived here. Eating is not a problem, but I hope I'd just be able to relax and sleep. The positive thing is the result is certain, no doubts, and knowing the answer I am to get on with my life. I had thought that I would never write anything too personal, but it just appears that you cannot be sure about these things. The thing is, I would do anything to make myself feel better, and writing has always made me happy. The sooner I feel happier, the less I would cause problems to people around me, and I especially do not want to demand answers from the person that has fell out of love, and part as a decent human being. Knowing myself, I'm not the person that leaves people. Maybe throughout the relationship I do feel there are times when our values/thoughts were different, but I always thought an everlasting admiration and solid love would make everything work. I had pictured a wonderful life together for a long, long time. But no. Maybe I should thank the other person for reminding me that there's more to each of us than us being together. I'd to rethink about what I want for myself and what the future can bring. It's a valuable opportunity, nothing better than this. My family and friends have been so supportive, and I need them more than ever during this period of time.